One talk given in sacrament dealt with motherhood. One thing that stood out to me that the brother said was that "motherhood was next to divinity." I got choked up as I recalled a conversation from almost two years ago. In that conversation a reference was made to something President Hinckley has said. "Contrary to what some may believe, unwed parents who place their children for adoption are not taking “the easy way out” or abandoning their responsibility. Instead, they are placing the needs of their children before their own feelings and desires—the essence of true parenthood. Such a decision is deserving of the highest commendation and respect. " I was also told that birth mothers have a special understanding of the love of Heavenly Father and his ability to sacrifice his Son. "The decision to place an infant for adoption can be a wrenching one, yet it is an act of selflessness and profound love."
I think at times I grow so accustomed to being "fine," not being overwhelmed by my prior triggers. I forgot to prepare for today "just in case" and ended up feeling down most of the day. It is probably silly but I really wanted flowers. Just a nice happy bouquet of flowers. I wanted to be acknowledged and shown that somebody remembered me. Mother's Day is such a fickle thing, am I mother or not? All the past week at work I've had the same question repeatedly, "Do you have any kids?" Short and simple answer: "No." But...I always feel like I'm lying when I say that. I wouldn't mind sharing my story but I don't want to make them uncomfortable. How does one handle these awkward situations?
